So ... I jumped on the freakin' bandwagon and changed my username to something that has a longer shelf life.

If you likes, I can now be found under:

gentleben84

(the whole 'transguyben' thing was ok last year, but I'm over it.

I've got no idea how to make a cool little link to my new account, sorry kids)

Ciao!

Game over

I'm going for a walk, I may be a while.

Ben

Been gone a while, hiding.

Tragically under employed and no luck rectifying the situation. I've been going to the gym, working about 15hrs a week and sleeping.

My parents are still being annoying, I can feel our relationship getting bitterer and falling apart by the day. They're stressed about Dad being retired now (less income) and looking after my grandmothers. One in particular. She was in a car accident a few years ago and has acquired brain injury, she has short term memory loss and its getting 
worse.

Which they like to use as an indication of my self-centredness: ie, how can i expect them to be supportive of my transition when I never ask them how they're coping...
Of course I care, of course I ask them how they're coping. But they're my parents for fucks sake, and they don't understand why I would bother telling them about my life if I know they don't approve.

I'll never make them happy as long as I am being a guy. Ever.
Regardless, I'll go home and look after grandma for a while soon. 

I asked Mum today about why she didn't push me into doing a degree that would have guaranteed a job; "Well you never listen us anyway, we've never had much luck convincing you to do what we think" (read: we think that your transition is stupid) and then said: "you got crappy parents, deal with it".
I love them, but I never want to talk to them. My insides tighten up and my brain overheats whenever I do.

I'm also retardedly scared of going back to uni - to do a masters of journalism.
When I told mum about this she just said: "well you need to find out which university will give you a better chance of getting a job" 
FUCKING DUH .
When am I going to learn that my parents give shit advice...

My secret wish is that I really want to do another bachelors, but in Animation this time. I'll have to wait another 2 years though I think....damn it to fucking hell.

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Went out to dinner with Sonny, Chris, Kelly and Ty on Friday night. It was made of awesome.
Thanks guys;
  

In other news, my parents

are making dinner for me tonight. Should be good for a laaaaaaaugh. 
BUH!

So here's a montage of what Sonny and I got up to over the (drunken, sleep deprived, secruity guard pissing off, debaucherous) weekend... Happy New Yar Betches.


        
Special thanks go to my new personal hero: Liam 'Kelly' Sullivan

Yay! I shot myself all by myself at home today. I feel so freakin' relieved and self-congratulatory right now :D

In other news, I'm so fuckin' happy to be back in Brisbane. If i wasn't so broke I'd spend the rest of this year in the Valley, with a bourbon and coke in my hand, dancing my arse off.